Remember, remember that rainy September

to my little unborn one...

i'm your father...
even if u don't know me...
i'm the one, who taught you how to ride
down the lane of memories
even if u never walked...
i'm your father
an almost star wars quote,
even if u never heard it...
"i'm your father..."

even if i loved your mother,
i'm not your father...
even if I handpicked your first bib

i'm not your father

you'll never know
how I could have held

you

how I could have whispered
lines of dead poets

to you

how your mother and I
slept under the new york
moon, sweating the night

you were conceived

and if you are like me
the not knowing will
make

you hate

the moon is the egg
I fertilized

And when you were born
an electrical storm

swept across the Pacific
lightning, white caps

waves smashing palm trees
rain like metal balls

and I while you slept

I went to a bar called SNAKE PIT
prayed to learn how to be a father

since that hour
I have not seen the moon.